Free Falling

The moments when we find ourselves tumbling backwards and down, free falling towards those actions and patterns that we once held as ours but no longer bear their roots in our mind and bodies, are not moments of failure, nor moments in which we are to critique ourselves for perhaps revisiting. No, they are moments to remind us of how far we've come, of the person we once were and the one who stands before us today.

In these moments, we shatter and rebuild, remembering the work we've done to pave our way towards the very creation of the person we aspire to bring to life.

Any time spent lingering on the wonder of nature, we will come into the daunting yet humbling realisation that everything around us is in a perpetual cycle of death and rebirth. We see this in the autumn leaves; we experience this in our biology of cells shedding and multiplying and in our psyche, sensations and notions moving through on the winds of thought that pass through the mind.

We must never cling but find the ease and release in relinquishing ourselves into the free-fall of nature's creation. Just as the tree in the season grows and loses its leaves, so do we release and bring to life the notions of who we were and want to be. The leaves in the change of season fall away, having served their purpose, to create space for the tree to grow new ones when the right time approaches.

And so, too, we must release what has served us but no longer holds its value to create space for new creation. How can we bring forth new ideas, thoughts, and mantras when our mind and body are already full of what we know? How can we expect change when we are already oversaturated with knowing?

And although stepping back sometimes may bring forth sensations of unease, loss, brokenness and uncertainty, we are toying with the art of knowing and un-knowing ourselves. We loosen the boundaries between familiarity and what is shadowed, coming to understand the intricacies of who we are, only to find the resolve that we don't know anything of who we are. But the very acceptance of un-knowing is the very act of stepping forward into knowing. It is through the burning away that we can breathe new life into the embers of creation and bring back to life the fire that burns bright within.

Our past is our teacher; our actions and behaviours have brought us to where we stand today, but we also possess the power to turn the page and start anew. Revisiting our former selves is not a moment of despair but rather a reminder to ourselves that we are moving forward and forging our path with grace.

And so then, one must find compassion if we fall but remain steadfast with resilience to get back up, celebrate where we stand, and keep striving forward. The fall is not a failure but a moment of recognition to commemorate the effort we have put forward to harnessing the power of who we truly are.